You Have To Be Willing To Learn From Your Life Experiences!

As a retired person, I never imagined that I would still find myself dealing with a smear campaign and cyberbullying from toxic tenants from my last workplace whom I moved away from years ago. It has been an enlightening experience and I have come to realize that their continued online antics won’t hurt me anymore.

I have processed my emotions brought out by their behaviour and can now take it all in stride. All that remains for me now is the education I continue to receive on all the toxic traits I saw and felt from their writings, online an off!

They have the unhelpful tendency to allege that a specific person alone is responsible for all incidents of racism within a particular city or area, like me here in NL. While they include various articles on racism, some that are really outdated, they show no evidence that I took part in those things, then or now. I am being used as a scapegoat to lay all allegations of racism on in my community. Just as the school administrators are being used to lay on all racism that occurs in schools.

They are attempting to “expose” and widely condemn me as racist without proper context or avenues for a response in the contents of their many websites, and that is why it will always fail. They pick on the individual, not the issues, and are all about placing blame. I learned from that…

I learned that when telling your story of one of your life experiences, it is important to be transparent and show your true self, otherwise what is the point? Show the good, the bad, and the downright ugly. I am human after all and as such, I make mistakes too. The difference is that I learn from them and try to do better. I am determined!

When I first discovered that these former tenants were spreading lies and false accusations about me online, I was shocked and hurt. I couldn’t understand why they would want to cause me harm, just for doing my job. I had to change my focus, forget about them and work on myself. I set about learning about me, and what I valued and believed. I even had to relearn what some of my emotions meant and what they were telling me I needed to work on. I set about healing my mental health and becoming the confident person I used to be.

The smear campaign they launched against me was ruthless and relentless. They spread rumours about my character, my financial situation, and even my mental health and while I was down for a while I never gave up. They went to great lengths to portray me in the worst possible light, all in an attempt to tarnish my reputation and turn others against me. Thankfully, the damage was minor and has since been repaired…

At first, I was consumed by anger and frustration. I couldn’t understand why they were targeting me in such a malicious way. I felt like I was being unfairly judged and attacked, and it hurt me deeply. I spent endless hours trying to defend myself and set the record straight, but it felt like no matter what I said or did, they just kept coming at me with more lies and accusations.

I had to learn to let them and instead use laws and policies that govern the internet to help me get their content removed. I taught myself to understand hosting policies and to use them to my advantage, such as copyright and doxxing rules. In the process, I learned what you could, and could not, write online, depending on where you host your site. I could go back to free speech hosting and continue to name and shame them as they do me, but they are not worth it to me, which is why I left and removed their names. I prefer to remain true to myself and not become like them.

It was during this time that I realized how toxic and unhealthy their behaviour truly was. It became clear to me that these former tenants were not just content with moving on with their lives as they stated – they wanted to continue to hurt me and cause me pain, even though I was no longer a part of their lives and never would be again. They seem to hate that fact, as they refuse to let me move on after all these years. Their actions are fueled by extreme bitterness and resentment, and it was clear that they were the ones with the issue, not me.

As time went on, I began to see their online antics for what they truly were – a desperate attempt to gain attention and validation. They were trying to feel powerful by tearing me down, but I refused to let them succeed. I realized that their words and actions could only hurt me if I allowed them to, and I decided to no longer give them that power over me.

I started to focus on the positive aspects of my life and the things that truly matter to me. I surround myself with loving and supportive friends and family who know the truth about who I am as a person these days. I focus mostly on my hobbies, my interests, and my passions, and I find joy in the simple things in life that bring me happiness. I even opened up about my life and shared my experience on my own site, which helped release the toxic shame I felt for so long.

I also made a conscious effort to distance myself from their toxic energy and negativity. I stopped engaging with their online posts and comments, and I made a conscious effort to block them from my social media accounts. I refused to let their toxic behaviour seep into my life anymore when there really is no need and bring me down. I started working behind the scenes to spread the word that I didn’t create that site and sent it to every company I could find. That action too helped release the shame I felt.

Over time, I began to realize that their online antics were nothing more than a reflection of their own insecurities and unhappiness. They were projecting their own issues onto me, and it was not a reflection of my worth as a person. I knew in my heart that I was a good and caring individual, and I refused to let their lies and accusations make me doubt myself.

I sought support from mental health professionals who helped me navigate through the emotional turmoil that their online bullying had caused me. I learned coping mechanisms and strategies to deal with the stress and anxiety that I was feeling, and I started to prioritize my own well-being and mental health.

Now, four years later, I can confidently say that their online antics no longer have the power to hurt me. I have learned to rise above their toxic behaviour and focus on what truly matters in life. I have surrounded myself with positivity and love, and I have let go of the anger and resentment that their actions had caused me.

I have come to realize that their smear campaign and cyberbullying were nothing more than a temporary setback in my life. It was a challenging experience, but it has also taught me valuable lessons about resilience, strength, and the power of self-love. I am no longer defined by their lies and accusations, and I am grateful for the opportunity to rise above the negativity and toxicity that they tried to bring into my life.

In the end, I am grateful for the experience because it has made me a stronger and more resilient person. I am better able to handle other aspects of my life better too! I have learned to trust in myself and my own worth, and I have let go of the need for external validation and approval. Their online antics may have once caused me pain, but now they serve as a reminder of the power of self-love and the importance of staying true to who I am as a person.

I am at peace with myself and my life, and I know that their words and actions can no longer hurt me. I have moved on from their toxicity, and I am focused on living a life filled with happiness, love, and positivity. Their online antics may have once been a source of pain for me, but now they serve as a reminder of the strength and resilience that lies within me.


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