Self-Awareness

I have always believed in the power of self-reflection and personal growth. To me, it is crucial to acknowledge and take responsibility for my own behaviour, especially when it comes to toxic tendencies that can negatively impact those around us. It isn’t easy due to the discomfort it brings, but it is an essential part of becoming a better version of myself. I was driven to learn about the behaviours I was seeing from others around me and in the process, I ended up changing my own!

Just remember, we can all be toxic. Every single human being is capable of displaying toxic behaviour at some point in their life and probably has. I firmly believe that understanding this truth is the first step towards personal change. It is an undeniable fact that we have all been toxic, are currently being toxic, or will be toxic in the future. However, what sets us apart is the desire to be educated about it and the determination to do better and change our toxic behaviour. I am one of these people. Are you?

In my drive toward self-improvement, I have come to understand that toxic behaviour can manifest itself in many different ways. It can range from subtle, passive-aggressive comments to more overt acts of manipulation and control. YOU CAN FEEL IT! Toxicity can be present in our personal relationships, work environments, and even within ourselves. I have learned that it is crucial to recognize and acknowledge these behaviours to break the cycle and create healthier, more positive connections with others.

One important lesson I have learned is that toxic behaviour is often rooted in our own insecurities and unresolved issues. When I act out in toxic ways, it is typically a reflection of my own internal battles. I was bullied by toxic tenants in the workplace and I gained my own toxic behaviours I have worked hard to get rid of! My toxic behaviour was a defence mechanism I used to guard myself against further perceived threats. I thought that naming them on my own website would protect me from further abuse, but I came to see that action was hurting me more, as it isn’t who I am! Identifying these underlying causes was challenging but was crucial for my personal growth and the ability to break free from my own toxic patterns.

Since I removed their names from my content and instead focused on the education I am getting on the behaviour, and how I am recovering from that, I feel much better!

It is not enough to merely recognize toxic behaviour; one must also take accountability for it. This means acknowledging the harm caused by our actions and taking steps to rectify the situation. It requires tremendous courage to admit our mistakes, apologize sincerely, and work towards making amends. While it may be uncomfortable initially, admitting our toxic behaviour is a necessary step toward healing and personal growth.

In my experience, I have noticed that some people choose to ignore any accountability for their toxic behaviour. They continue acting in damaging ways, perpetuating a cycle of toxicity. It is saddening to witness this, as it shows a lack of self-awareness and a disregard for the well-being of others. Those who choose this path are often resistant to change, refusing to acknowledge their toxic behaviour or the impact it has on those around them. The toxic tenants I had were such people, and 7 years later they still tried to blame me for all that gone wrong. I refuse to be like these people as I don’t want to hurt the people close to me if I can help it!

It is essential to pay attention to these patterns, especially in myself. Surrounding myself with individuals who actively pursue personal growth and actively work towards improving their behaviour is vital for my own well-being. Toxicity is contagious; it can seep into our lives and poison our relationships. By surrounding ourselves with toxic individuals, we risk absorbing their behaviours and perpetuating a harmful cycle. I would know, I lived in this environment for over 2 years and as a result, I picked up some of their bad habits.

While it is true that we all have the potential to be toxic, it is crucial to remember that we also possess the power to change. I chose to change, as it is a better choice for my personality. I prefer to educate myself, seek guidance, and work towards developing healthier ways of interacting with others. It is a continuous process that requires introspection, self-reflection, and a commitment to growth but I do it gladly. By actively working to change my toxic behaviour, I was able to break free from the cycle and create more positive connections with the world around me.

One effective way to combat toxicity is through self-awareness. By increasing our understanding of our own thoughts, emotions, and behaviours, we can recognize the moments when toxic tendencies begin to arise. Mindfulness practices such as meditation and journaling can be incredibly helpful in this regard. These practices allow us to observe our thoughts and emotions without judgment, helping us gain insight into our toxic patterns and tendencies.

Additionally, seeking support and guidance from professionals gave me a valuable perspective on my behaviour. They helped me identify blind spots and provided constructive feedback to aid in my personal growth. Don’t ever be afraid to ask for help, as it is an essential step in the drive toward overcoming toxic behaviour.

Part of the process of overcoming toxicity is identifying triggers and understanding the root cause of my behaviour. It was helpful to explore my personal history, examining past experiences and relationships for patterns that may contribute to my toxic tendencies. By understanding the origin of my toxic behaviours, I was able to effectively address and heal those wounds, ultimately freeing myself from toxic patterns.

Accountability is another crucial aspect of personal growth. It means taking responsibility for my actions and their consequences. When I recognize my toxic behaviour, I must hold myself accountable, acknowledging the damage caused and making a genuine effort to rectify the situation. This may involve apologizing to those affected and committing to change. True accountability involves consistent actions and behavioural shifts that demonstrate a genuine desire for personal change.

It is essential to remember that personal growth is not a linear process. Changing toxic behaviour is challenging, and setbacks are inevitable. However, what matters is our commitment to change, our ability to bounce back from setbacks, and our perseverance in overcoming toxic patterns. It is through consistent effort and a genuine desire for transformation that we can break free from the cycle of toxicity.

In conclusion, it is crucial to recognize that every individual has the potential to be toxic. We have all exhibited toxic behaviour, are currently engaging in toxic patterns, or will do so in the future. However, what sets us apart is our ability to be self-aware and our willingness to take accountability for our actions.

Some individuals actively seek education and personal growth, working towards changing their toxic behaviour. Unfortunately, others choose to ignore any accountability and continue perpetuating harmful patterns. It is essential to pay attention to these patterns and surround ourselves with individuals who are dedicated to personal growth. Through self-awareness, self-reflection, and a commitment to change, we can break free from toxic behaviours and foster healthier, more positive connections with those around us.

Personal growth is a daily process that requires dedication and effort, but the rewards are immeasurable. Together, let us aspire to be better versions of ourselves and strive for a world free from toxicity.

Am I asking for the impossible? What do you think?


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