My Emotional Reactions To Toxic Adult Bullies Gaslighting!

Narcissistic Abuse

Recovery for Me

Gaslighting is terrible and I saw so much of it! The perfect example of gaslighting from Toxic Adult Bullies is the first letter received. This letter was sent out after they received their first Form N5 for refusing entry for pest control and the issues with the glass replacement. They felt put on the spot for the N5 so that letter and the contents within are retaliation for that. It is obvious to me these days! Very First Letter Written by Tenant Bullies

In this letter, Toxic Adult Bullies is Gaslighting you into trying to accept that her” feeling I had a problem with her” was true when in reality she has no idea what I thought!  They assumed that what they thought was true.

This is where all their lies first started, in this letter that came 2 1/2 months after they claimed we had this imaginary prior meeting at some restaurant, though they don’t mention that in this letter.

My Bullies First Letter! “I have to say that from the moment I met you, I had the strange feeling that you had some kind of issue with me.

I don’t get stuck anymore with the written words going round and round in my head, as I can get myself out pretty quickly these days by telling myself the truth: They don’t know me well enough to write what they do about me. They show nothing that proves what they say.

They don’t even know for sure that the address they share is mine, as they have no evidence of it. Thankfully, I learned not to use my real address for this very reason!

I am starting to find all this funny now, as truly, what else can you do? Toxic Adult Bullies are entitled to his opinions, but people are entitled not to accept them too! I don’t need to accept what he has to say, about anyone or any situation, so I won’t.

Toxic Adult Bullies is trying to convince me that he has the influence to do what he writes below. These words are to get at me and cause fear and anxiety, just like everything he has done online. It doesn’t work anymore. It is evidence that it is a Smear Campaign and Cyberbullying.

“It does not matter; the point here is that Stella Reddy is in a continuous losing battle because, in the end, everyone who searches her name from friends, family, or future or current employers and co-workers, will all see the truth about her and will deal with her accordingly.”

So with that said, Happy Anniversary, Stella Reddy; we have many, many more years together in this journey to expose your racist behavior to as many individuals as we can. Because remember, racist people like you need to be “called out.”

It’s over for me and I have won back my sense of self and my self-esteem. I am recovering and becoming stronger every day and with every word I write on my site. With each truth I reveal, I free myself from the past and free myself to let it go. So, no it does not matter what they do anymore.

No one has searched for my name, found their words in, and dealt with me as they think they would, not in Ontario and not here in Newfoundland & Labrador. My experience has been the opposite! I have received empathy instead.

I am very open with people I have met these past couple of years and tell them I am being cyberbullied in a domain in my name by past toxic tenants from my career of working in apartment buildings in Ontario. I also tell people these tenants have been going for almost 8 years and that they refuse to let it go. I am also very open about having my own website too!

I have no reason to hide from this site they have in my name anymore. I have every right to share the behaviour these toxic tenants do in my name.

I have reached the point where I am okay now with it all. This is my life to live and Toxic Adult Bullies has no place in it, not anymore. All he is a nasty prior tenant who got mad over being evicted. They decided to break the rules and their eviction was the consequence, not my problem they won’t accept it.

This person is not all-powerful like he wants you to believe and he cannot control anyone in my life and has no influence on my future, not like he implies on his content. Such grandiose thinking! They think their nasty opinions about others will sway people against me but I haven’t seen it. It didn’t work then, it isn’t going to work now after all this time.

The most important thing is I am gaining back my own self-confidence. Once they didn’t show up for the Hearing in January 2020, it proved to me once and for all, they were lying and that was all I needed to start on the road to recovery!

One day, I won’t feel the need to write about this experience anymore but until that day comes, I will continue sharing my experience with it.

It is all everyone needs, as honestly, who would go through 19 months of the process and just walk away when they were so sure of what they accused me of? If they were so sure of their accusations against me and others, nothing should have caused them to abandon it all, not after going through all that for so long. It told me the truth, they were lying! Yes, the gaslighting made me question, as that is the intention!

Gaslighting Behavior Examples

There are stages of gaslighting behaviors that start from subtle to more severe that cause terrible emotional reactions. With any type of abuse, the gaslighter doesn’t want to push the boundaries too far at first. It is a slower form of abuse that takes you by surprise. Here are some examples of gaslighting:

Lying and Exaggerating

The gaslighter will say negative things about you indicating inadequacies, and causing you to be defensive.

Yes, these words were said about me in the content of

  • “that crazy racist”
  • “as a bully”
  •  “under cover white supremacist”
  • “A White Pride, really bad liar”
  • “Stella Reddy is that piece of shit” 
  • “Stella Reddy has no shame,no pride, no self-worth and is so moral corrupt that it is beyond comprehension.”
  • “White Pride racist bigot”
  • “Stella Reddy the White Pride narcissist” 
  • “Stella Reddy has once again and not unsurprisingly been proven as the really, really bad racist liar that she is.”
  • “And once again Stella Reddy will try and discredit indisputable facts with nonsense, because that is all Stella Reddy can do! But you see Stella Reddy is an under cover White Supremacist because she says things that are racist, but then is not woman enough to own it.”

“Instead Stella Reddy will

  • cry about her PTSD, or
  • her alleged metal breakdown and does not remember what she did or said, or
  • she will blame it on the owner and his son, or
  • she will blame the interracial married couple / tenants for her own choice of words.”
  • “Stella Reddy is a coward who uses so many different excuses as a crutch because she is not woman enough to take responsibility for what SHE has obviously said and done.”
  • “Remember racist and bigots like Stella Reddy are always the victim! Because that is what racist Narcissist do.”
  • “White Pride Karen”
  • “boo-hoo blog.”

Another perfect example is the email received on March 1, 2021. Toxic Adult Bullies is trying to gaslight you into believing what he claims I am thinking once again. “With that said, you can now go back to your life of being a Pot Head every day,  crying about how the world has done you so wrong, and continue on with your imaginary PTSD so you can continue to live off us, the taxpayers. We are just glad that we were not as big of a failure as you were for your children.

Read, it contains a lot of gaslighting examples as well!

Repetitive Gaslighting Behavior

Gaslighting wouldn’t be effective if it were just every once in a while. To gain total control, one has to constantly maintain their offence. Gaslighting narcissists and sociopaths will play psychological warfare in order to dominate the relationship and keep everything in their control.

Toxic Adult Bullies attempts to Gaslight you into believing his narratives are true when he clearly doesn’t know. How can he when he doesn’t know Stella Reddy like he claims he does? The simple truth is that it is not possible.

    Disputes are Escalated if Gaslighter is Challenged

    Gaslighting tactics will escalate if you attempt to call them out on the lies they are telling. They will start to come up with evidence to prove they are right about your inferiority and uselessness. They will refute the evidence. The gaslighter will deny, blame, sow doubt, and add more false claims. You will become so confused that you don’t know what’s right from wrong anymore.

    Toxic Adult Bullies attacks became more malicious once I started writing and posting my websites, especially when I started getting support for my narratives, as he had to try and manipulate me into removing them with his gaslighting technique.

    Even now, they still send me nasty emails, trying to get me to stop sharing. They claim they are moving on with their lives, yet, they still have these websites that contradict those words. If they were moving on, these sites wouldn’t exist anymore and they wouldn’t use my name in everything they do online.

    The Gaslighter Will Wear You Down

    The gaslighter abuser will be on the offence at all times which will wear you down. You will feel so low that you start to doubt yourself. You become discouraged, fearful, and debilitated. You question reality, who you are and whether you’re perceiving things properly.

    Continual accusations and changing of narrative will do that to you and it did to me. I felt defeated for so long, nothing I did would get these domains removed or get Toxic Adult Bullies to shut up with his lies.  Hearing constant accusations, over everything you say and do, is terrible for your mental health.

    Good thing my education on toxic traits has shown me what they are doing! With this knowledge, I can accept their actions and know that they don’t matter in the end.

    Total Domination and Control

    For a narcissistic gaslighter, their main goal is to totally dominate and control you. When they can do this, they are able to take advantage of you with no consequence. Gaslighters can do this to a whole society. The lies that they tell about you will keep you insecure, in doubt, and afraid.

    How to Stop Being Gaslighted

    How do you deal with gaslighting? A gaslighting narcissist ultimately wants to have control over you. Not giving them that control can often damper their attack on you. Quietly standing up for yourself and emotionally removing yourself from the conversation will cause a gaslighter to feel uncomfortable. They have likely been working on breaking you down for a long time. It’s not going to be easy but here are some things to keep in mind to avoid being gaslighted.

    • When you’re with a gaslighter, be very aware of what they’re saying and doing around you. Pay attention to all the fine details.
    • Create an untouchable belief of yourself and what you know to be true. Your intuition is your guidance system, make sure to listen to it.
    • Keep it simple when dealing with the gaslighter and know their true motive is one thing. They are trying to make you believe what you know to be true as untrue (or the other way around.)
    • Don’t allow the gaslighter to think you believe what they’re saying. This gives them permission to continue on with gaslighting abuse.
    • Remember that nothing the gaslighter is doing has anything to do with you. They are the one who is sick.
    • Be okay with not “winning” in a bout between yourself and a gaslighter. Chances are, you probably won’t. This is part of the game they play. It’s few and far between that you will convince them you’re right and they’re wrong.

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