March 2020 – Went to Property Owners about Civil Court, was told not “financially feasible” for them to do that and too time consuming. As a result of this, my husband and I decide to move up our moving to Newfoundland sooner than we planned. Between March and April, 2020, we are mediating with the Property Owners to help us fund our relocation to NL and they didn’t offer enough, we filed a complaint with Ministry of Labour and reached a settlement. We took this settlement and used it to move to NL. Hubby gave his Notice to Quit and his last day of work was September 14, 2020, we left in a U-Haul on Sept 15, 2020. Got to NL and our new home on Sept 19, 2020.
June 29, 2020 – I sent email to 43 Division with TPS but no one did follow up with me.
To: 43Division Subject: Criminal Harassment Please check out the following domains online for Criminal Harassment , especially www.stellareddy.com. All domains are www.stellareddy.com www.859kennedyroad.com www.sjtomemberkevinlundy.com www.davidstrashin.com www.sjtomembervandanapatel.com I was advised by a retired officer I know that www.stellareddy.com is heading into the criminal harassment area now, especially with the added content of 14 pages comparing me to someone in the US. Please respond to my email.
July 15, 2020 – Sent email Hi , I can’t handle it anymore, I have to get away from this building and from Ontario, as soon as possible. I have such a knot of anxiety, fear, stress, you name it, in my belly that won’t go away. I can’t eat, sleep, go out, do much of anything anymore with this insidious fear I have been feeling. The extremes Toxic Adult Bullie has gone on www.stellareddy.com content and on www.859kennedyroad.com, and www.sjtomemberkevinlundy.com. It is disgusting really the news jacking he is attempting to do with the current news on racism and even though I know most people have the common sense to question what they claim on there, there are some who would use it as an excuse. I was told this by Toronto Police last week when all the comparison stuff showed up on there. There is no way to know what a stranger will do over inciting content like that. I can laugh at most of it, but some will not. I can’t live with the unknown of it anymore.
I reached out to Newfoundland a couple of weeks ago and asked about getting an exception to move back there this year and I got it in email on Friday. I then emailed the property owners here and had a meeting with them in the office on Monday afternoon and I asked them for financial help to move to NL by end of September. I told them I can’t take the target on my back anymore. Either Russell and I get out of here as soon as I can manage it, or I will end up leaving on my own to get away from it and in the process leave Russell. They are thinking about it, still have to talk to Russell. I am hoping to hear back soon, as preparations need to be made. I even looked at the GoFundMe stuff, that is how desperate I am feeling.
I know this is what Toxic Adult Bulliewants, but to be honest with you I just don’t care anymore. I need peace in my head…. I need to LIVE not just exist as I have been doing. I am stagnant in my recovery and I can’t move on while I still living here in this environment. I don’t want to get back to the state I was in, feeling so hopeless and trapped. I refuse but I am not strong enough yet mentally for his written words to not affect me, it’s that simple and I won’t get strong while I am still here.
As I told Russell the other day while bawling my head off, I need to leave as I need peace in my head and I that I felt stuck between what is needed for us as a couple, which is the stability staying here offered and what I need for myself, for my own mental health, which is for me to leave and find a quiet place in St. John’s where I can finally relax and feel safe to go outside! He had the perfect answer for me. He said that he is willing to support me in what I need to do as he can’t watch me lose myself anymore, that I was more important to him than a job. I know he had gotten use to the thought of putting it off till next year with all the pandemic going on but I won’t last that long. I know that. I am also hoping that once we are no longer living here then those sites will become moot and disappear online. Either way, no one in Toronto will be able to get to me in NL! In the meantime, I am taking it one day at a time. Its all I can do. Don’t worry. I am looking after myself and doing what I need to do for me and my mental health. I will keep you informed!!